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I love this verse....most of the time. I love the hope of looking at past examples like Paul..Moses...Peter...John the Baptist and taking hope from them to keep trucking. But there are times when I simply do.not want to run my particular race. It is too boring...too hard...too sad. I believe that trusting God will give me the endurance to run but i just don't want to do it. There are two particular areas that God has called me to run with endurance during this season of my life....eating to honor God and decluttering my house. One is doable but my own sin of laziness causes me to put off the decluttering of home. I have tons of excuses...tons of people to blame it on. After all i am very busy. Nobody ever puts anything away anyway..or the really self righteous ones like...God cares about the heart of man not his stuff. I am serving others not myself...The ridiculous list goes on but God is great and totally ignores my buts and convicts me with love and grace and enables me to run this particular race. It will shortly be accomplished unto him. I so desparately wish i could say the same of the other race...eating to honor God. This particular race has been years of heartache...sadness...sorrow..grief..

Ups and Downs...confusion..false hope..I find myself laying down my running shoes as often as I put them on. This sin of gluttony has grown into the monster that lives in the closet of my heart and comes roaring out all day and night. I have been angry at the monster...scared to death of it..and stomped it in the ground one or two times over the years but it still abides in great comfort in my closet..until recently. In the last two years, i have began to yell at the monster through prayer to a powerful monster killer (Gen.3:15). I have changed up my racing strategy..it no longer rest on false hopes like diet books or fads..my own strengths or my own wisdom...it rests on the great I AM who gave Moses and Paul and John the Baptist courage to endure their race. My run is now based on his strength..his wisdom...his work of deliverance. This race won't be finished as quickly as my house but it will end...there will come a day when this sin will no longer have any part of me..until then God help me run with endurance the race you set before me fully expecting to be free from the monster who has lived far too comfortably in my life for years. Praise God for sure championship status in our race.